yesterday i was emo after i seeing him,my tears juz flow out frm nowhere..i noe i still love him alot...but whenever i be wif him,i still dun feel e care n concern,n dotes me...e expectation tat i wan is not there...im so lost whenever i saw him...i reali dunno wat to do?he told me tat althought he still love me but think he is still not ready for a realtionship,cuz he too selfish...he said tat he not yet to becum e person tat i wan...so we shall gif each other some time n lets be frenz first...if dis is wat he wan,i have nth to to say already...

i dun wanna cry,but when i think of wat he said to me...my tears juz flow out auto itself...telling myself not to cry already but still cant...meeting tian zuo at cck...cuz we meeting e rest at his hse there cuz going to see bicycle...i was telling myself,"im going to meet them already so dun let them see me crying"but when ying ren cum fetch us,once i sit in his car my tears juz flow out non stop...cant control myself frm crying...i was using my hand to cover my face so tat dey cant see me crying..but in e end dey still saw it...at first tian zuo asked me am i sick anot,i told him i was fine...ying ren passed me tissue...but once he passed me e tissue,i cried again...
daboy sms me in e car asked me whether im ok anot...i replied him back,said im fine...uz need to be alone for awhile...think e last pple realised tat im crying is tian zuo ba...haiz...
i think i also a selfish person too not onli foo...i was not feeling gd until when i played bball at pangjang cc...

bestie pei told me dun rush dis things...she said since he said let gif some time n be frenz first so juz let it be lor...she asked me continue for dating n see how it goes...
dating?i dun have e mood to go for dating already...david is e 1st victim...i dun wan to hurt anyone again...haiz...

going to meet tian zuo n co for dinner later den after tat will be going to our "budget pub" to drink...haha...dunno todae i will drink alot mah...but guess should be drinking alot lor...hopefully tonite will got more pple to go drink wif us..e more pple e merrier...hee...