i have done something very bad to the man i love deeply.i have hurt him and make him disappointed again n again.i always lied to him abt same things tat ytd i have confess to him tat i lied to him and he was very pissed off n sick of tired of my lies.and he wanna break up wif me.when he was saying tat he wanna break up wif me,my tears drop like water flowing down frm the mountain.my heart few like needles poking my heart one by one.im trying to salvage my relationship and to aplogised to him.i realised the mistakes tat i did reali will harm my relationship so badly till he saying wanna break off wif me.im finally awake tat i shouldnt do dis again in future.i nv blame him to say tat onli can blame myself to make dis terrible mistakes again n again.but i not taking unpaid for no reason is due to my gastric den i took unpaid.but sometimes i have to used lies to covered it so tat he wont scold me.scold me becuz he cares for me i always noe tat,cuz even though im telling the true he still will get mad at me.wat he say its true,i reali dunno wat i wan to do for my future,becuz i reali dunno wat job i can do in my future.although in the end we nv break up but i noe tat he already tired of me been lying to him cuz of dis again n again.emotion breaks down again when i went to find him,the face tat he saw me is like i have been tired of wat u did again and i wont be bother ur stuff in future,tears drop automactilly and i dun dare to look at his face.waited for him to do his stuff n den went to for his bbxn match.heading to his car,and we din tok at all.im sitting his car looking at the window n tears start flowing down again.trying to cool myself down so tat nobody will noe tat we r quarreling before tat.after match start to better abit but still nv reali nv tok alot..went back to slp and was thinking abt the incident again and tears start to drop till i fall asleep.

i realised i cant leave without him,he is my everything.without him i reali dunno wat to do i have rely him alot alot.i reali realised the mistakes tat i make and i reali dun wish dis to happen again,dis is a nightmare to me.i hope we will back to normal.hope things go smoothly ard us after dis incident.i reali love him alot.